So, I’ve briefly blogged about PMDD before. I liken this time period to my inner dragon awakening. I recently visited my primary care physician for a regular check up and mentioned PMDD to him. He was educated on it, thankfully.
He wrote me a prescription for an anti depressant. And I’m honestly terrified to take it. He said we will discuss other options once we decide the medicine doesn’t work.
A seed has begun to grow in me, over time. This seed is my suspicion of modern medicine and processed foods, etc. I’ve been on medications at different times in my life. Each time I was on medicine I stopped taking it because I did not like who I was on the medications.
I did not like the effects the medications had on my body and thought processes. I’m desperate to find a workable solution to this craziness and so I relented and accepted the prescription.
I’m afraid the time has come for the dragon to awaken. And so I know it’s time to give this a shot. I’m terrified and I hold very little hope that this will accomplish what I want.
I’m so tired of the depths of my thoughts. I’m so tired of the chaos of my emotions. I need a break. I’m just hoping the medication won’t break me.
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