You are worth it. You can do it. You deserve better. You are capable of better. It used to be so rough and turbulent in the old days. I fear those days still have a tight grip on you, suffocating you slowly.
Your innocence was chipped away and stolen ever so subtly. You weren’t given a fair chance from the start. I wish you could see you as I see you. Strong, resilient, troubled, yet wonderful, caring, and genuine. You are real. You are different. You are struggling.
I want so desperately to take it all away. I want to shake you awake, make you realize you are capable of standing tall and leaving the negativity behind. It breaks my heart to see you stuck in this destructive cycle.
I can still see you running wild and carefree. I can still feel the determination in your words. I only wish the words you speak now were not so desolate. If only we could turn the dial back, be children once more. If only we knew that what we experienced was not okay maybe we would not have grown into such similar experiences. If only you could just realize that it doesn’t have to hold you back anymore.
You can tell him no. You can ignore his calls. You can put yourself first. You can pick yourself up.
What you are feeling is okay. You have every right to your feelings. You do not have to let them control you anymore. Let him go. Love yourself instead. He is not going to change for you. You should not have to change for him anymore. Do not believe his lies. Believe in yourself!
It isn’t easy, but, you are worth it. Everyone makes mistakes. You learn from them. You move on. You can do this! You have made a lot of bad choices and have been forced into a lot of bad situations. Do not let that define you. You have the rest of your life ahead of you. Make it count for something more. Never stop striving for more or better.
You face down those demons. You rip them to shreds! Have no mercy. Then turn your face towards the sun and keep moving forward.
We used to be so close. We were shadows. I hope one day we will be as close again. I hope we can look back on these days as a distant memory. I hope you’ll get to the other side of this temporary storm. I hope you grow from these experiences rather than be torn down by them. You are worth it.
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