Ascending From Slumber: Part One

Suddenly I am standing on the front porch of my nightmares, the door eerily still, wide open. I feel the walls close in on me as I look at that spot on the floor. The haunting shade of red draws me in as I recall being curled up on that floor, spitting blood and drowning in my tears. Continue reading “Ascending From Slumber: Part One”

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Let Go

My mind is playing tricks on me

I miss you like a faded memory

I cannot recall.

 

My mind is playing tricks on me

I feel your touch like a ghost in the night

You are not there at all.

 

My mind is playing tricks on me

I hear your voice call my name like a whisper in the wind

I will not let you penetrate this wall.

 

My mind is playing tricks on me

I run away from you like a victim seeking safety

It is time for me to stand tall.

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Here We Go Again; PMDD

So, this blog will not be eloquent or properly written. Fair warning on cuss words too.

Over the summer, after an intense fight with my (now) ex, I googled “Why do I get so angry right before my period?”.  The results showed me a shit ton of links describing and relating to PMDD.

Don’t know what that is? Look it up. I really don’t feel like explaining it in ‘correct’ words or terms. Long story short, though, it’s ‘categorized’ as a mental illness (whatever!), and is also known as PMS on steroids.  Continue reading “Here We Go Again; PMDD”

It’s Never Too Late To Change Your Life

Dude, life is changing.

I’m changing. Good changes. I’m choosing me. I’m deciding to trust myself and believe in myself.

I struggle with some things still, of course. But clarity is the key word here, folks. Clarity and truth.  Continue reading “It’s Never Too Late To Change Your Life”

The Truth Will Make or Break You

I am an honest person. I cannot stand lying. I am a horrible liar.

I struggle to even tell a friend ‘That shirt is so cute!’ when it is the most hideous thing I have ever seen.

I have kept a lot of my truths under lock and key because of fear. I have feared judgment, abandonment, and confusion. I have feared saying my truths and upsetting those in my life.

I will no longer be that person.  Continue reading “The Truth Will Make or Break You”

Heartbreak Is Silent

You have lived for so long as a broken thing, always searching elsewhere for the fix. You put the pieces of your heart in his hands, trusting that he would help put them back together. You learned the hard way that the only true fix comes from within. Continue reading “Heartbreak Is Silent”

F*ck You Negative Nancy

I’ve been on the struggle bus for far too long. I don’t have answers. I only have more issues.

I’m surrounded by negativity and stress. Inside my head it’s even worse. I recently discovered that my body basically hates me at a certain point in my menstrual cycle and that causes my mind to go crazy. And I’ll have you know that this issue is considered a mental illness. Kinda crazy in itself.

So, I’ve been struggling; beep beep! Continue reading “F*ck You Negative Nancy”